I’ve been holding back. I don’t know why exactly, but I know I have been. I don’t mean to insinuate that I have been doing so intentionally. Quite the opposite, really. Most of the time it has actually felt completely out of my control, and, while it has been extremely frustrating at times, it hasn’t been…

I’m sitting here in my office, my dog is asleep on the couch behind me, the fridge and furnace are taking turns humming into the silence, I have nowhere to be, and yet my heart is racing as I sit down to attempt what feels to be a nausea-inducing trial of…

Last week I landed back on planet Earth. I can’t fully explain where I was prior to my most recent arrival, all I know is that suddenly, halfway through the second set of a band I was running sound for, I felt a kind of deep ‘thump’, and there I was.

I think I left my body somewhere around five (or was it six?) months ago. Don’t get me wrong, it hasn’t been…

Recently I’ve been waking up before the birds. Not exactly by choice, mind you, but it’s always at least a little nice to be awake to watch the day come into focus. I’ve had a lot on my mind recently (always) and a little voice in the back of my head keeps saying, “uh oh, I think I feel a blog post coming on.” I’ve spent a fair bit of time ruminating about our new single, “Mind Control,” which came out two weeks ago. Having the final product in our hands feels as though we have made it to the top of a long, steep climb. I really want to share, with whoever cares to read this, why this single feels so triumphant, and also…

Andi, emily and Geoff write about their personal experiences with mental health.

Holy shit.

Wha..? What day is it? What time is it? What black hole did we fall into and what took us so long to get out? 

We tried our best to stay relevant in the algorithmic eyes of social media, but we needed to take a step back for a hot minute and collect ourselves. But we’re back! And, if you’ve been wondering where we’ve been, allow me to catch y’all up…

Dear Diary, uhh… wassup? HOW ARE YOU? I don’t really remember how to socialize anymore, my bad. Quarantine ruined me. I hope that you are feeling good, and being kind to yourself and others. I gotta say, the change in the weather has really affected my mood. I’m sure a lot of us are feeling this way as the days grow shorter, colder and COVID has yet to fuck off. Not to mention…

Hello fellow citizens of Hellworld,

I’ve been struggling with an inability to express myself. It’s been wave after wave of depression, exhilaration, outrage, joy, fear, anxiety, happiness, hope - back and fourth and up and down without stopping. I can’t focus. I’m fatigued.

I had a conversation with Geoff this afternoon after he walked into the room to find me face down on my keyboard. I explained that I have been trying to put my thoughts into words for nearly two months and that I’m finding it impossible to...

I’d like to start off by warning you about how fucking long this post is, that way if you’re not in the mood for a long read then you can just go ahead and read the last paragraph. The last paragraph is really what’s important. But, if you’ve got a bit of time to spare, and you don’t mind spending it with me, then BUCKLE UP. I’m taking you on a journey.

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First thing this morning, as I was brushing my teeth, I heard Geoff yell up the stairs that there was a “special delivery.” Naturally, my interest was piqued, and I rushed downstairs to find that…